I wrote this for my last post in my "Self in Community" class. It addresses the idea of time, how my perception of time impacts my perception of God, and how my understanding of God impacts my understanding of time. For your consideration...

I never have enough of it, I never have enough to give, I watch it fly by, I watch it crawl...I ask for more and fail to extend it to those I ask it from. And I waste it with the best of them!

How my perception of time impacts my image of God...
The idea of time governs my time with God; when I pray, I keep an eye on the clock, hoping to pray long enough or letting the clock determine how long I pray. My devotional life has centered around time for a good chunk of my faith life; is quiet time an hour? Less? More? What time should I schedule my connecting with God? How long do I need to put in to fulfill my requirement? In worship -- how long will the sermon go? Why is this song going on so long? Can we keep church to an hour so I can get home for lunch? We got to start church on time, so let's cut the conversation already! I think that inadvertenly my valuing of time has made God both a task master (you have to give me your time!) and a check on the schedule for the day (I have to keep my appointment); devaluing Him in both areas.

How my understanding of God impacts my understanding of time...
He uses time as a medium for relationship. It is not something to hang on to, or value, but rather to be spent as a means of maintaining connections with both Him and others. He created it; in His economy, a day is a thousand years and a thousand years is a day. Jesus gave His time to others, and knew when to take time for His own growth/connection/rest. It does not seem to be a commodity for Him, but rather, something to be given and used as a means of blessing to one another.

I have been really pondering the idea Brother Lawrence proposed -- rather than having specific time with Jesus and checking it off the list, my time ought to be preoccupied with Jesus in that every moment is an opportunity to enjoy His presence and to give life to others.
God chose to place us here, in world that is run by time; He gave us the sun and moon to determine how time might work in our lives; I think that rather than wish I had more and not use what I've been given, maybe I should start using it more wisely right now.